I haven’t run in weeks. I just can’t get into any kind of rhythm. Between Kayla’s hospital stays, doctor appointments, and caring for her, I can’t get any kind of routine going that includes running. Yes, I can squeeze in a run here….a run there….but I don’t feel like I’m getting anything out of running if I can’t do it on a regular basis.
And here’s the other thing I can’t get from running right now: training for goals. I’ve realized over the years of running that I thrive on goals. I’m motivated by setting and making goals. I LOVE training. And I just can’t do any of it right now. My daughter’s health has taken priority over everything else. AS IT SHOULD.
So for a few weeks, I wasn’t doing anything for exercise. Then I could feel myself slip slowly into a state of depression. Not good. This mama needs to stay positive and focused!
Thank goodness for PiYO. PiYO has been my cross-training exercise when I run. I can do the workouts in my living room, early in the morning before anyone else gets up. I don’t have to leave the house; I’m there if Kayla needs me for anything.
If I’m going to be honest, I don’t enjoy PiYO nearly as much as I enjoy running. But for now, while Kayla is going through chemotherapy, it will do. The workouts make me feel strong and flexible, which is what I need right now.
I’m a little sad, and I will miss my runs. But running will be there when I decide I’m able to commit the time and effort to it. There will always be races out there to train for. This is just a temporary hiatus.
Strength for Kayla. Courage for Kayla.