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2021 vs 2020

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When I look back at my social media posts and blog posts from 2020, I was on the top of my game, both physically and mentally, even though we were in the midst of a crazy pandemic. I was killing my workouts, I was eating healthy, and I was goal-focused. I had a group of virtual friends who were supportive and kept me on track and it was fun and motivating to have a fitness tribe.

2021 has been a lot different. It started out strong, but then took a nose dive. I’ve had some health issues and our family has had some stressful challenges. I’ve gained 15 pounds over the last six months. I don’t feel like myself. My mood and mindset are all over the place. One moment I feel strong, the next I feel like having a meltdown. Some days I have a lot of energy, other days I feel like napping all day. Our fitness tribe broke up, for lack of better words. Everyone is doing their own thing and we lost the connection we had.

I’ve been feeling pretty lonely, disconnected and isolated, but after my last post I realized that I wasn’t the only one feeling this way. So many people reached out to me and said that they felt the same way. I blame a lot of it on menopause, but honestly I think most of us as a society are going through some tough mental challenges right now and when you’re struggling mentally, it’s hard to stay healthy physically.

I used some tools in 2020 that I’m just not utilizing this year in 2021. I honestly don’t know why I stopped. I think I lost my momentum when I had my neck injury and I just never got my mojo back. Although my workouts are going well enough, I can’t make progress because my nutrition is crap. I just can’t seem to stay on track with healthy eating. I’ve been down this road so many times before.

I’m currently reading a book called, Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One by Dr. Joe Dispenza, and I think it’s exactly what I need right now to get myself feeling my best again, both mentally and physically. Although I’m not that far into the book yet, the book essentially teaches you how retrain your brain in order to make measurable changes in your life. According to this book, you CAN create the reality that you want. It’s all about your thoughts and your energy. I mean, I think we all kind of know this, but how do you get yourself to actually DO it? I’m hoping that this book will be a useful tool to get the soundtrack of my brain to change to something more positive and impactful.

I also reached out to my OB-GYN care provider to see what I can do to help myself feel better. I’m not sure yet if I want to do some sort of hormone replacement therapy, but we are going to at least discuss options. Since my diet has been crappy, it could be if I get back on track, continue to work on my mental health, and keep up with the workouts that I can get myself out of this slump I’m in. But I think it’s good to talk to my medical provider because this isn’t something that I just want to “power through” if healthy lifestyle habits aren’t enough.

I dusted off the journal I used last year to write down my goals. I think my goal for most of 2021 has essentially been “just get through the day” and I’m over that. I need to get my shit together and challenge myself again because although I’m aging, I’m still strong and badass, or at least, I can be that way again. I just need to commit and focus. I know I’m capable.

This week I’m going to eat clean and stay away from the alcohol. I have found that alcohol and dairy seem to be triggers for my hot flashes and night sweats, so this week I’m staying away from these things to reset and hopefully feel better.

Finally, I’m going to continue cutting back on my social media time. Last week I barely looked at it and it really helped to improve my mindset. Although I feel like social media can be very useful for inspiration and motivation, I think it’s more helpful when you mindfully use it for this purpose. Sadly, I had gotten to the point where I was just looking through my feeds for something to do, or to get some sense of connection. But instead, it just made me feel more disconnected and I wasn’t getting any sense of joy out of what I was looking at. Taking a break and only checking in on social media occasionally has re-ignited the joy and sense of connection.

Of course, I’ll continue to write posts here on my blog. It’s the only way that I’ve been able to “journal” and it has always been great therapy to write things down and share with others. Most importantly, though, I need to find my fitness tribe again; one that will encourage me to push, to keep going; one that I can laugh with and share personal victories with, but also cry and vent with when life is throwing me curve balls.

I’ll try and write again later in the week to let you all know how the clean eating week is going for me. In the meantime, may you all have a peaceful, joyful, healthy week!

May your glass always be full,


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