Thanksgiving is over and soon it will be Christmas and a new year. Wow, the year both flew by and yet felt like it lasted 30 years, am I right?
It’s holiday season and I’m kinda feeling like the Grinch.
Over the last couple of months, I just haven’t felt like myself. I blame menopause, the pandemic, and the change of weather. My sleep has been crap because I wake up multiple times with night sweats. Some nights I wake up and then I can’t get back to sleep. I have hot flashes multiple times during the day and they make me miserable. I have to forego the warm, cozy sweaters and instead wear tank tops or short-sleeved shirts layered with a lightweight cardigan. I have to wear masks in certain areas of my workplace, and they intensify my hot flashes to where I almost feel like having a panic attack.
I have days where I have to force myself to do anything productive. I’ve gone from having tons of energy and focus to almost none on many days.
I went from feeling fit and lean to sort of fit and 15 pounds heavier, mainly in my belly area.
And if it sounds like I’m having a big pity party for myself, I am. But I’m also determined to not let this menopause shit kick me in the ass. So here are the things that I’m doing:
- I saw my OB-GYN medical provider and got me some hormones. It’s in the form of a transdermal patch, which I replace every few days. It’s expensive as shit, as my insurance doesn’t cover all of it, but it will be worth it if it works. I’ve been using it for a couple of days and I can already tell a difference in how I feel.
- I’ve cut back on alcohol and sweets, since I read that both of these things can trigger menopausal symptoms. I’m not going to give these things up completely, but I’m not indulging as frequently as I used to.
- I’m continuing to work out regularly, but I’ve changed what I’m doing. I used to love cardio and HIIT, and I am still doing these things, but most of what I do now is low impact and I modify more often. I make sure that the majority of what I do is strength training. I’m also adding more stretching and flexibility. I feel like strength and flexibility are things I need to keep improving as I age.
- I have a fan at my desk and a fan next to my bed and they have been game changers.
- To keep my mind exercised, I’m reading non-fiction books that teach me new things and I’m learning new skills like knitting.
- I remind myself each and every day that I although my body isn’t the same as it was, that my brain might not be as sharp as it used to be, I am still a badass mama. I have a great life and I’m surrounded with people and dogs who love me. None of them care that my waistline is thicker, that my hair is grayer, or that my memory slips up. I’m learning to accept this new me.
In the midst of all of this, I’m trying to find my Christmas spirit and quiet the Grinch voice in my head. Maybe the tree and decorations will get put up. Maybe the hubby and I will do some baking. Or not.
On another note, today is a happy day for our family. Kayla is celebrating six years of remission! What a wonderful early Christmas gift!
May your glass always be full,