Good morning! How has the summer been for you so far? It’s a challenge, but my husband and I are trying to make the best of it. We aren’t venturing out, which is unlike us. This time of year, we love to go for bike rides with our friends and go for hikes, but staying at home seems like a safer option. We spend a lot of time in our backyard, but we really should try to at least go for walks or bike rides for a change of scenery. I made an early morning grocery shopping trip this morning and the store wasn’t crowded and everyone there was wearing a mask, but I got a bit frustrated because it can still be hit and miss with what won’t be in stock. Today it was tempeh. I guess it’s good because it means more people are going with plant-based protein options because the prices of meat (?!?!?) are ridiculous right now. But it’s bad for people like me, who eat tempeh and other plant-based proteins on a regular basis. Luckily, I have plenty of beans, tofu, and edamame to get me through this week. The produce, also, was a little sad, which was disappointing because usually this is the time of year when there is plenty of fresh fruit and vegetables available. So I made sure I bought plenty of frozen veggies to have stocked in the freezer.
It is what it is and I’m trying to just make the best of it. I’m trying to be flexible and roll with the punches.
But it’s so hard. Extremely hard on some days. I find myself getting frustrated and anxious, and just plain pissed off. There are days when it’s hard to focus and many nights when I don’t sleep well. Watching the news upsets me, scrolling through social media gets me worked up, even though I’ve tried to cut back on both activities.
I realized that for me it boils down to feeling a loss of control. I can’t control what’s going on with this virus, I can’t control what’s going on with all of the division in our country right now, I can’t control others’ thoughts and beliefs, I can’t control if people are going to social distance and wear masks……the list goes on and on.
The Universe has been trying to tell me this for quite a while. Every now and then I would get this urge to just stop what I was doing, take a deep breath, and just trust what was happening. Let go of what I had no control over. Sometimes I would actually do this, some days I would try and do it and fail miserably, but many times I would just ignore the urge to stop and let go because dammit, I want to be able to control things and other people!
Yesterday I made the conscience decision to just stop, breath, and trust what was happening. I gave myself a break and didn’t watch the news, I didn’t look at my Facebook or Instagram feed at all, I enjoyed a great workout, read and watched a little TV. Then later in the afternoon, I got a notification on my phone to remind me to meditate. You see, a few weeks ago, I decided to download (yet another) app on my phone to help me meditate. Meditation is a habit that I just haven’t been able to master yet and I can count on one hand how many times I’ve actually meditated since I downloaded this recent app. I opened the app and one of the first meditations to pop up as an option was called “Letting Go.”
A sign from the Universe, yes?
The narrator of the meditation talked about how we can’t control how others act or feel; we can only control our own actions and our thought processes. It’s not like I haven’t heard this message before, but yesterday I really truly heard it.
The Universe keeps sending me messages that I need to practice letting go. I’ve always been kind of a control freak and like to have things a certain way. I’m a creature of habit and I get super stressed out and anxious at the thought of changing my environment or daily routine. It’s probably for this reason that I’ve handled the quarantine so well. I’m here at home, I have a routine, and I’m able to control the environment here at home. Outside, though, is a completely different story. It’s chaos out there!! Or at least, that’s what my mind tells me.
I took the next week off of work and even though I’m not planning on going anywhere, my plan is to really work on establishing a meditation habit, in addition to working on just trying to understand and empathize with those who may not necessarily be thinking and acting in a way that aligns with my own thoughts and beliefs. We are all human, none of us are perfect, and we are all individuals who deserve love and respect. And I’ll be the first to admit that I’m not always good at remembering that.
There are so many things that I have control over, though. I have control over how I treat others, how often I exercise, what foods I feed my body, what I read, what I watch on TV, what music I listen to, what podcasts I listen to, what image I want to present in my social media accounts, what social media accounts I want to follow, what kind of coach I want to be – I can fill my heart and soul with so much love and positivity and I can share that love and positivity with others.
I just have to let go and trust the Universe.
How about you? Do you meditate and if so, how did you develop the habit? How are you doing during this pandemic?
May your glass always be full,